But I don't have the energy to write about how my life has been for the past couple of weeks.
Somethings are great: school, boyfriend. Other things are not: my best friend or ex best friend.
I'm so tired of crap.

How soon is too soon to be in love?

God, I haven't updated this thing in forever.
So much has happened.

Jeremy and I have been dating for a month and a day.
Yesterday was his birthday.
Everything is going really well. I think I might be falling for him.
That' scary.

I'm never home anymore.
I'm always at my friend's house or at Jeremy's.

I finished all my Christmas shopping last week :)
i'm excited for Christmas.

My dalmation lady died today.
I've had that dog since I was 7.
She was 13 years old.

I know she lived a long happy life
but it still hurts.
I can't deal with anymore deaths.

You know for someone who doesn't particularly like relationships when I do get into them it happens pretty damn quick.
Anyway, Jeremy has pretty much liked me since the first day we hung out and he was obvious about it too.
So, I've been spending all my free time with him.
And I can honestly say I do like him a lot.

We'll see how it goes.
But right now I'm pretty content.

Well, not really right now cause I'm horribly sick :(
but he brought me flowers and chocolate yesterday when he came to visit me.
So sweet.

The last past couple of weeks have been filled with ups and downs.
But right now everything is good.
My best friend's boyfriend moved in right across the street from her house with a couple of roomates (Paul & Jeremy). I met Jeremy a couple weeks ago when we all (about 6 of us) went to southbeach.

Well, turns out I've been over there almost everyday for a week cause I like Jeremy and wow this sounds like I'm in middle school ... he likes me. So we've just been hanging out and we're going on a date Saturday. :)

Other than that I'm just busy with school and such.

Rest in peace grandma. I love you & know you're in a better place. Say hi to grandpa for me, k?


My grandma passed away this afternoon and now I'm just dealing. I'll miss her.

So, I just had a panic attack of some sort and my mom had to call 911.
I have a bad medical history ...


I've never felt anything like that.
So 3 paramedics basically checked me out ... they even saw me half naked psssht stupid EKG.

But I'm okay now. Still a bit shaky and kinda anxious but wow.
I've been really stressed with life lately. I have midterms going on, getting ready for the LSAT, trying to figure out where I'm going to go for Lawschool, family problems, money problems, friend problems, plus I'm an naturally stressed/anxious person

but I've had bas experiences at night with health stuff so when I started panicking it made it that much worse. I'm going to my doctor tomorrow but now I have a headache.

MORE STRESS

 Promises are like flower petals
soft, flowing, and full of life
but like flower petals promises decay 
turn an ugly shade of brown and die on the lips of the earth.

Promises are like kisses.
Feather light and full of hope.
but like kisses they fade and turn into meaningless actions.
Nothing more than a ritualistic event used to shut someone up.

Promises are like tears.
They are necessary to keep the eyes refreshed, comfortable, so they will allow them to see.
But like tears they blur senses and deceive, cause aguish, burn, and hurt.

Promises are like a laugh.
It starts off small, almost undetectable but spreads like the plague, contagious.
but like laughter it renders you powerless and leave you with a dull ache of emptiness once it has stopped.

Promises are like parents, like friends, like dreams.
You expect them to always be there but when you need them
they disappear -- oh the excuses.

It was one of my best friend's 21 birthday so we celebrated here are a couple pictures. I suck at Lj.


Stephanie (my bff and I)
http://i166.photobucket.com/albums/u114/jenjen1527/123.jpg

underage drinking woo.
http://i166.photobucket.com/albums/u114/jenjen1527/001.jpg
my friends and I being silly
[IMG]http://i166.photobucket.com/albums/u114/jenjen1527/84w.jpg[/IMG]

I need to update this thing more!!! I think I need some more friends to motivate me to update. If you guys have any cool friends, tell them to add me.

Anyway, so on Tuesday I hung out with this guy Anthony ..... at the mall, we talked which was fine but then we went to the movie and he paid for my ticket I should have told him not too because through out the movie he kept trying to hold my hand and he kept touching me!!!!! The he said he wanted to kiss me and I told him flat out "NO".

Then after the movie it just got worse he kept grabbing me and feeling up on me. I told him to fucking stop ..... but he didn't take the hint until I told him I had to go.

Now, the idiot .... keeps texting/calling me. He knew he was making me uncomfortable cause he kept asking "what's wrong" .... gah I hate guys like that.


HAHA, and Logan decides to text me tonight to hang out and "party" ... I really liked this guy A LOT but we stopped talking for like a month ... so I kinda just forgot about him because I don't waste my time on guys .... not anymore. So, I told him I was busy and he said "aw, okay maybe some other time".

I don't know.... gahhhhhhh. I need a guy who isn't creepy and who isn't gonna call whenever he's bored and needs someone to hang out with.

Oh, and Hurricane Ike sucks I hope he doesn't hit us directly!!!!

I repeat Ew.
He totally made me so uncomfortable :(

more details tomorrow I need a shower and to sleep.

ICK!

I just home from this country western nightclub called round up. Mind you I don't even like country but w/e. I went because Logan wanted to hang out. I'll update about the entire evening tomorrow. I am far too tired.

They suck a lot. Logan has called and texted and he told me he wanted to have lunch sometime this week, it's thursday and it has yet to happen. He also invited me to a party at his house tomorrow. I don't know we'll see what happens.

Nick called me last night. That's another one I don't know about. He said he was sorry for not calling me sooner that he has been really busy, but really how long does it take you to pick up the phone and call someone just to say hi...

I don't wait around for guys... i tend to move on rather quickly .... so

I'm going to Las Vegas. I leave the 29 and I'll be back the 2. :)

I just got home from a party. I'm kinda buzzed I had three beers, I never drink when I'm out but my best friend drove so I thought why not. It was a party thrown by my best friend's boyfriend's friend.

I got a hot guys number (His name is Logan). I'm excited. He's gorgeous and came to talk to me. Gah. Okay, my head is hurting so I'm going to bed.

I wanted more beer but .... I got told I couldn't have anymore!


edit: Okay, I think I was a little more than buzzed not quite drunk well a little drunk. But last night was so much fun, a bunch of us were talking about my ex boyfriend and they were in shock I actually dated "that guy" they said I was way too hot for him so ... that was definitely fun!

Logan and I actually exchanged numbers so he said he would call me today so maybe we can do something tonight. I kinda gave him a look like saying "yeah, I've heard that before" but he said "I'm not an asshole if I say I'm going to call, I'll call" .... he said he wants to go out dancing.

So, I'm going to not wait by the phone and get out and do stuff. My head is still killing me.

Sunday night I went out with this guy Nick... he's 25, graduated from college, has a good job, is really cute, nice, and funny. Anyway, he picked me up and we went to a nice little Italian place but before getting to the Italian place we saw the most horrific accident ever.

We were driving down the expressway (well he was driving) and all of a sudden 3 cars zoom by racing each other and no sooner then we know we see a silver truck do like 7 barrel rolls to the other side other expressway landing in the grass. We saw the yellow mustang that hit the truck but we didn't actually see the impact. Nick got the tag number of the mustang while it was stopped but then it took off. We pulled over and Nick called 911 and he reported the accident.  We left  as soon as a cop got on scene, there was a bunch of other cars checking on the man in the silver truck. During dinner the cop on scene called Nick and they talked about details .... 

but we had a good time and we were still in shock about witnessing such a bad accident.

So after dinner he dropped me off cause he had to work early the next morning but he did text me saying he had a good time and he called me yesterday..... so I'm kinda happy. He told me he met with the cop on the scene and they told him if he could identify the guy who was driving the car... he did get a look at the guy but not a good look ... and he found out the man in the silver truck was released and had minor injuries so thank god for that.

Interesting first date ... yeah.

He said he'd call me later on in the week to see if we can do something.

Ugh. My ex-boyfriend has yet to leave for California, I am really over him but he keeps calling me out of the blue to see if I want to hang out it's pathetic. He BROKE up with me cause he is being discharged from the Coast Guards and leaving to amend things with his dying father.

Yeah, he called me on the fourth of July to see what I was doing & last week to see if I wanted to hang out. I don't want to hang out, I don't care what you're up to, I'm over you. He treated me like shit right after the break up so he can go screw himself :)

I'm having fun being single and just talking to a bunch of guys... I'm not one to like commitment.